wednesday - happy birthday to me

tuesday

monday

the next few days are post to me...reminders to me that age is a number and that turning 48 is no big deal.

game on

it has now been almost two months since i decided to get my act together and really get in shape. sure i always practiced a lot of yoga but that was it. and of course the holidays didn't help. let's just say i had way too many treats and i was feeling pretty lumpy bumpy. as i look forward on the calendar towards my retreat, i realized it was time to get rid of those lumps and bumps. as they say in mexico, adios!
i also hit a new time new low low - not fitting in jeans, seeing photos of myself that i'd rather not see. that was my bottom.
i am slowly crawling out of that place. occasional moments of doubt appear - aka jeans still tight. but  i know i am moving forward.
i added a skin regiment and a new haircut. that always helps.

as my friend anne told me. it is a slow process but with patience it can happen. i turn 48 in a few days and i am counting on feeling good! so long Doubt Family.

i went to a party recently and met this guy who says he does a variety of cleanses. he currently is on a 30 day facebook cleanse...which as you can guess means no facebook for 30 days. that of course got me thinking.
i am now two days in to my personal 30 day cleanse of no shopping. sure i need food, and household essentials but i don't need clothes, items for the house, etc. so far so good. of course i noticed a couple things immediately - don't open catalogs. don't open emails from retailers i like.
of course there are a few dates coming up where i would give gifts (aka shopping) but me being me...those were taken care of months ago! the only stumbling block is my anniversary. i had been going back and forth as to what to get my husband with no luck. and maybe that is the answer. i don't need to buy him stuff to celebrate our time together. instead, i am taking him out to dinner and making him a card. perfect. problem solved.
i know this is one cleanse where for sure i am going to feel lighter at the end. yay, no extra bills!
happy May!

thursday

if you read this, you know that occasionally i like to acknowledge what i am grateful for in my life. here goes a quick list right off the top of my head...

my husband
my girlfriends
my good healthy
the endless possibilities of the day ahead
that i believe in something great than me - a higher power
things that make me smile, laugh
dogs
when i get an email/phone call from a stranger wanting to hire me for work
my mom is in good health so she can travel to see me
the sun shining in my sun room right now
my down blanket...love it
seeing the light lit on the dvr...means a good show is being recorded and when i watch it, i can skip through the commercials
the coffee pot grinding beans and preparing the coffee
new hair stylist
sleeping through the night
the beauty of san francisco
my little car that takes me everywhere so easily - easy to park, economical on gas, and saves me from taking public transit
movies
sing a long on the radio music
strawberry trident gum

i think that is a pretty good start to the day.
thank you.

still working on it

i am hosting a yoga retreat june 22-29. this means i have 7 more weeks to get myself in stellar condition. i began this trek a month ago - more yoga, cleaner diet, and fitness classes. oh and i started a skin regiment to reduce fine wrinkles and age spots. since i am at the half way point i am thinking i should be looking different. but in my eyes, i don't. now i will say that my clothes do feel looser (love that) but visually i don't see a difference.
for now i have to think that my eyes are playing tricks on me. it's an illusion...it's all an illusion.
7 weeks.