it has been a month

(note: this was so painful to write that i am not even editing it. i just had to get it out since it has been so long. my advanced apologies to you.)

i am learning, rather slowly, but still learning. the only way to get into the habit of doing something well is to do it over and over. as you can see from the date of my last post october 31st, i have not been practicing that idea when it comes to my writing. not only have i lagged on my blog but i have also lagged on my book. so, i am jumping back in with the attempt to post here daily and hope that motivates my book writing as well. ok here goes.
what has happened on the food front since october 31st? first we had halloween and then the extended thankgsgiving holiday. basically there were potential minefields everywhere. i dodged every bullet...even when a few friends told me i was "missing out". i thought about eating a friend's cheesecake but after slicing a piece, i just had no interest. could this have to do with the fact that i can't get a check appointment until jan. 11 2012? maybe. i also think i have put some of those cravings on hold. so the food journey continues.
and for the writing, i know...rusty. just gotta work out the kinks.
happy holidays peeps.

halloween candy

oh my gosh...had no idea i can taste through my smell. sunday night...remembered i needed to take bag of candy out of refrigerator for tomorrow...gotta give out candy to the kids. opened the bag to put the candies in a bowl and zap that smell of chocolate knocked me out. i was so tempted to eat one reeses but also afraid that i couldn't stop at just one. i think i don't have the control to handle. guess for now i gotta skip it entirely. crazy.

candy

part of the reason this food experiment was enticing was the timing of it...the time before we all start to eat and eat and eat...from candy (halloween) to pies (turkey day) to chocolate chip cookies (my mother-in-law-s specialty at christmas). i wanted to really feel at the top of my game going into the holiday craze. i have a friend who said the day after christmas she woke up and felt like her blood was like gravy from all the food consumed. i don't want that. today the news it was reported that the average american, and we know i am above average, consumes 25 pounds of candy per year. and as i wrtie this in my refrigerator thanks to my husband sits a combo pack of reeses/twix candy to give out at halloween. thankfully i have had absolutely no desire to rip that plastic bag open. have to say that alone feels pretty good.

heading home.

today is day 107. yes, i continue on. been in vermont for the last couple of weeks in the home of two super healthy vegans. so my send off today...breakfast was a glass of homemade green juice. nice. i don't know what happens once i land in sf but for right now i feel pretty darn good. i supported the vermont/ny economy and bought myself some new clothes to fit my new size. i need to get pants but think i will wait until the end of the year. for some reason in my mind i think that will be the best time.
here's to the beginning of holiday time...halloween, thanksgving, christmas, new years and continuing on this path of food exploration.

follow up

been a few days since my day 100 and the journey continues. i have thought about what would be the food that would break the experiment and still no answer. i was in walgreens and thought about a candy bar. i love or maybe loved candy. now i want it to be something that is amazing. so far nothing. i will let you know when it happens and of course what it is!

day 101

what's my big take away from all of this? any goal that might seem big to achieve is easier if taken in small steps. i totally understand the AA philosophy of one day at a time. when i set out on this food experiment, 100 days seemed like a long period of time. just getting to the end of the month to change the calendar page seemed long. but with my daily count down before i knew it i was in the home stretch and now i have crossed over to the plus side with day 101.
keeping it real...one day at a time.

day 100...last day

went to dinner last night with liz and her two kids. they had a pizza with red sauce (no cheese) and pasta with red sauce. then dessert...a brownie cut in four. i think the waitress thought all four of us would split the brownie but instead the kids shared.
have to say the aroma of the food along with the kids humming as they ate their meal got my stomach churning and my nostrils flaring. uh oh.
what will i do after today? i have no idea.
for now i can say i have completed my goal and i am feeling good about it.
thank you for reading! cheers to me and to you.