sometimes you just need to ask for help

i have realized that i am walking around like a zombie. part of me feels i need to engage with others and part of me wants to tell them to all fuck off. pretty extreme i know.
i need to talk to someone. thankfully a former yoga student is a therapist and she is going to meet with me on thursday. i need her to talk to me about people with depression. i need to understand. i need to process my own feelings. and i need to do this before i leave on saturday to host a yoga retreat in mexico. i just know i need to get some of this stuff out.
knowing that i am going to talk to someone already in a way makes me feel better.